Saturday, July 10, 2010

The last couple of months...

The last couple of months have been..... well interesting, to say the least. June was a hard one, between Joshua's one year "anniversary" to Crista and I's seemingly constant bickering, It was a hard month.
One of the coolest things that happened june of 2010, was when we went to the coast for the anniversary of Joshua's passing. We rented a hotel, ate good food and just spent the day together. On the 5th, which is the date that Joshua passed, we drove to the lighthouse that I proposed to Crista at, I through Joshua's urn off the cliff into the water. It was just like turning another page in the book of our lives. I told Crista that I thought it would be good for both of us, she told me later that she had kept a small amount of his ashes, without telling me. I was a little frustrated at first but I realized that she needed to keep some just for her. That trip was very good.
I also finally got my Joshua tribute tattoo! It is his left footprint with his first and middle name over it and his last name under it. It also has the dates on the left and right sides of it. It looks super good and it is starting the "sleeve" that I hope to have done someday! At the same time I also got four music notes tattooed for my Grandma Holland who passed away this year. She was a huge influence in my life, she got me involved in music and always wanted me to play worship songs for her. I am going to miss her but I am glad she isn't in any pain and she is dancing with Jesus and Joshua! She will be the first one (except Jesus) to see him open his eyes. I can't wait for that day when I can see them too.
I also got a job in June. It is just part time but it is at Kendall Chevrolet where I used to work as a mechanic. It also the only job I have ever been fired from. Its a long story but the short version is I took something without asking and they were forced to let me go. It is great for me because it shows me that they know that I am a hard worker and I am valuable to the company! It is hard working again, while it is nice to not be living on unemployment anymore it is hard to get all the things done I want to with the limited time I have now. I'll get over that soon, I think that it is good for Crista too because she was getting tired of me being at home all day. I am excited because It will help me get back in the groove and will give me time for when I start school!
July has been a great month Crista and I just got back from camping at the coast with her parents and two youngest sisters. Her sister Jessica couldn't come due to money which is a disappointment because Im sure everyone would have loved to see her and Greyson (my nephew) Also her brother pat didn't come. He is going through a big stage of rebellion in his life. I wish there was something I could do for him but I think this is one of the times that we all go through where no one can help us but Jesus. I hope Pat finds Jesus's love before he does something he will regret.
I am leading worship on Sunday! I am super excited, It is going to be a lot of fun. The only bummer is that I am only leading 3 songs, but am still stoked! God I am your tool, you have made me by hand and shaped me for your purpose's. Please use me in that way so that I can honor your name!
Well I hope and pray that Jesus uses this blog for something good in your lives! Untill next time....